Mom Bod

Last week, Khloe Kardashian posted something on Instagram that got me thinking. She posted a photo of herself with part of the caption reading “10 months after giving birth and I’m finally feeling like I’m getting my mojo back.”

When someone who has a team of stylists, makeup artists, personal trainers, hair stylists, nutritionists, chefs etc. takes 10 months to get their mojo back, what hope is there for the rest of us?

A week after having Sutton, I was still swollen/bloated. I had come to the conclusion that this body was now my new body. To be honest, I was okay with it. That body had given me Sutton. I was and still am proud of it. I have been fortunate that since then, I have lost all my pregnancy weight naturally. I haven’t dieted or exercised. I have eaten chocolate almost daily. Just today I devoured the last of my second Lindt bunny. Yes, believe me, I do know that I am unbelievably blessed. But that doesn’t mean that I have my old body back. My body is different.

My scar has taken an incredible amount of time to heal. After a few weeks, my scar seemed to be getting worse rather than better. It was red and swollen with spots of yellow secretion in the odd area. At my last checkup with my gynae she informed me that I was having an allergic reaction to the micropore tape that I was putting on the scar to heal. Of course, if it was going to happen to someone, it would happen to me. Me and my allergies!! So I immediately stopped using the tape and cream and just put bio oil on my scar. Almost four months later and my scar is finally starting to get there.

My body is also not as firm and tight as what it used to be. My stomach used to be incredibly flat. To be honest, I had a slight six pack without stepping foot into a gym. Yes, I am that annoying person. I by no means have a ‘tummy’ now but it’s not as firm as what it used to be. Sometimes when I lay on my stomach at night and stretch out, my muscles still ache from how stretched they were. I guess I need to give those guys time too. They had an incredible amount of stretch to give and don’t simply snap back.

Having a baby is the most incredible journey that your body can go through. I don’t believe that we give our bodies enough credit. We grow a baby inside of us. This is their home for over 9 months. After we give birth, we are not gentle and kind enough on ourselves and our bodies.

So I sit here wondering when exactly I’ll get my ‘mojo’ back. When will I feel confident in my skin again and like my old self? I don't believe that anyone can prepare you (as a woman) for how you will feel after having your baba. Your body just feels different. Maybe it's the way you almost loose your dignity while in hospital, maybe it's the change to your body, maybe it's your hormones and maybe it's all of the above and more. I think that maybe I need to be kind on myself too. Give myself time. After all, Sutton only turns four months on Tuesday. Here is hoping that I get my mojo back in the right timing for me.