Survival Mode

6 Weeks in and what can I say...a lot apparently.

After my last blog - “Mom Guilt” I realised that I forgot to mention something that I feel guilty about. Rest. Everyone tells you to rest and/or nap while your baby sleeps. This is my guilt. I cannot rest. The truth is that I do not want to miss a moment or second of Sutton’s life. I know that may sound dramatic or ridiculous, but any mom will understand. This extraordinary and precious time of your baby being...well a baby, passes so quickly. I mean in the blink of an eye they change and develop, and I simply don’t want to miss a moment. I have napped twice since having Sutton. Once I napped while he was lying on me, where I napped for about 15 minutes. The second was this past Sunday where Damian was home and could watch Sutton while I slept for about 30 minutes. I know how desperately my body is crying out for rest, but my heart and brain is stronger and more desperate to share every moment with him. So there you go, this is my struggle and mom guilt. I feel guilty if I rest and simply do not want to.

A pic of my love bug and I at his newborn shoot

On another note, our little love bug has grown so much. We have just had our 6 week check up where Sutton now measures (well we forgot to measure him) and weighs 4.4kgs. He has started to smile, albeit occasionally, but when he does it’s honestly heartwarming. And he has also begun to coo. The smiles are more frequent than the coos, but they are equally as special. So much so that I squeal when he does so.

​I snapped this photo today - 6 Week Check Done

Motherhood is both the greatest challenge yet most rewarding gift of my life. Some days Damian and I can’t remember the 2 am feed or change. Sometimes we think we have changed and fed when we haven’t. Sometimes Damian wakes up and says something which makes absolutely no sense. Like random words just strung together. I have to admit that I chuckle at these moments. Lack of sleep does funny things to you.

My most handsome men

Not the most focused photo but his smile melts my heart

Parenthood is not glamorous by any means. It’s hard work (and I am fully aware that this is just the beginning) but this family tree, in particular, offers the sweetest, juiciest and most perfect fruit.

Bath time - he just loves his baths

Sutton, I cannot wait to get to know your precious soul over these next few weeks as you become more aware, alert and if possible even more perfect.

I love every facial expression (or yawn) that you pull

Happy December all and to all a good night xxx